I'll try not to ramble on and on non-sensically. But I probably will still write about swimming of course. I tend to put a lot of effort into my entries rather than post everyday about mundane crap no one cares about. So I like to get comments, but I'm not naive enough to get my hopes up about that sort of thing (lazy jerks :P).
Hmm, well, what to write about. I'm struggling here to find anything profound to say. Well there is the whole bizarre feeling of taking a fifth year of highschool that I'm sure someone else besides me must be going through. It's having a really bizarre psychological effect on me. See, I had all these great reasons to come back, so many things to do, so many loose ends to still tie up. I've yet to do much, and I'm getting this progressively worse feeling of not belonging where I am right now (generally as a rule I avoid posting about emotional stuff, but this has been on my mind since the first day back).
So I end up just feeling like I'm in this horrible state of limbo. And I've felt like this since the end of last year for a certain reason which I'd rather not get into. But it really sucks. Not knowing if I'm happy or not, I just know I'm really uncertain about pretty much everything going on right now. Ah well, things do seem like they're getting better at an incredibly slow pace. I try to stay fairly optimisic.
posted by gaelic_viking @ 4:58 PM
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Mm, I know that feeling. Maybe not quite exactly what you're feeling, but that "not knowing whether you're happy or not" thing.
All you need to do is shake things up. Force a major change. Make things exciting for yourself.
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